Arguments & Injuries

So, the festive holiday have been and gone, presents were given and received, friends and family filled the house, and a good time was generally had by all. I say by all, but I can't really include myself as personally I didn't really enjoy any of it. Maybe it's an age thing, but I'm starting to think that it's this house, things in my life have become so negative and suppressive, which is 100% against my normal character as my outlook on life is positive and very constructive.

For the first time in my life I had a "discussion" with my girlfriend about Christmas and the events that took place over it. Don't get me wrong, I don't have a temper and I don't even raise my voice let alone hit or break stuff, but I have just felt like there is this over powering negativity here. It's something I have felt even from walking from one room to another, a very odd sensation. I guess it could just be down to a temperature or different smell in different room that stimulates a memory from my child hood ? I'm not 100% sure. The crazy thing is it's a lovely house in a lovely area of the town I live in. It's very quiet and has lovely views along with being in a very handy location. In fact I couldn't be happier where I live, but it's the first house that I fell has effected my sense of mood.

Another thing that seems to be rather prominent is the amount of unusual injuries I seem to be getting. I'm not even half way through my life yet (in terms of age), but each day I seem to awake with fresh pains? Could it just be the bed I sleep in, or that I am actually getting older. It wasn't long after I moved in here when I picked up an unusual injury to my right knee. I woke up one day and my knee was filled with fluid, and pretty painful. I went to see my doctor who said it was full of fluid and would just have to wait and see what happened. Now despite it being pretty painful, it's still there some 5 months later. Another pain is my right shoulder, it just started hurting beyond understanding, so much so that I cannot raise my right arm much above my shoulder, again my doctor says wait and see ? Another thing is a few very close friends say I look tired, almost as if I am carrying extra weight, meaning extra stress or a weight unseen, something that is making me tired. Which is kind of odd because despite trying to be positive, it's how I feel.

The above picture shows my knee over the different months, and how it has changed in size.