Reflections

You know sometimes when I'm in the main bedroom alone I really do get this sense of someone actually being stood with me, and sometimes I've actually spoken thinking it was my girlfriend, only to turn around and find myself on my own. I suspect this could just be me again, as I do spend a large amount of my time on my own thinking, but again lately things seem to have been more active in this house.

Another thing I always find myself doing is trying to explain myself to myself, if that makes any sense at all. What I'm trying to say is that I always look around what I am seeing or what I feel, and try to offer myself a real explanation, although sometimes it's just randomly crazy things that I cannot explain. Take yesterday morning (Sunday), I was alone in the bedroom, just tidying up, and it felt like my girlfriend had entered the room, and again when I turned around the room was empty. Yet oddly I keep being drawn to the huge mirror in the room, I know this sounds odd, but it just doesn't feel right some days, and by this I just mean the reflection seems wrong for the room. It's either like the reflection is a little smudged, or the depth just seems wrong along with the brightness. In my mind I have often thought that maybe it's a two way mirror and behind it is a camera crew watching my daily routine, but as the wall it's mounted on backs onto my hallway and forms part of the chimney well I know this is not the case.

It's just uncomfortable some days, which is odd, as it's just furniture.